I am so tired and frustrated.

Hmm i saw a pair of Everlast flats that i want. Then agn maybe i want sneakers. Aha wtv i hope my mum gets either one. I want a new bag too. Damn why are the hols ending so soon??

"This is my broken heart." by Workisnotajob
To live within the wrong group of people
to have no access to the right group of people
to only exist
to be different and misunderstood
to be put on a pedestal only to be toppled
to be separated from the world
to be uninspired and surrounded by dullness
not to be surrounded by beauty
to have to put up with mediocrity
to work in a prison
not to be ready to lose everything again and let it all go
to be unable to sleep
to be unable to indulge
to be an annoying cynic
to be unable to go easy on myself
2 be miserable as an artist
to disregard my talents
to disregard myself whilst being outrageously arrogant
to be unable to do what's right when knowing what's wrong
not to be found
to can't find you
to have no bloody purpose
to don't see the fucking point
to be weary
to feel unloved when everybody loves me
to be unfair to my family + unfair to my friends
to love and not to be loved in return
to be unsure about love at all
to be relentlessly craving
to be relentless at all
to always be the strongest, even when i am weak
to be unable to be my own best friend
to be the loneliest girl in the world.

So true. Have been thinking a lot lately. Everyone isn't rly there.